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Jolie Moore's avatar

OMFG get a nanny. Big money means that you get to make those kinds of choices. I made it TWO weeks (now I had an a**hole husband who thought children were a great idea as long as he didn't have to interact with them, so there's that) before I was online during naptime finding and then interviewing nannies.

I *still* didn't write for 2 years, but she saved my sanity. I have done and will do anything for her and her family forever.

Think of someone else having a huge big love for your child and who will laugh and play and teach your child all the things you'd never think of. It was an LA cliche and maybe people judged, I have no idea because I was in a kind of fog and didn't care anyway. Many of my actress friends had nannies and it was all fine. They got to audition and do plays and go to acting coaches and god knows exercise like fiends and keep all that together.

I'm sitting here right now across from a now 11 year old who's lovely and wonderful and okay! He's fine! He's great! He's better for the experience.

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aal's avatar

"It feels like this insurmountable mountain to climb, and I feel like I'm next to the mountain in a lake drowning."

Oof - what a great phrase - I'm sure I'm not the only one to feel it as incredibly on point relatable. And I'm not even a parent. Polly's advice is better than any I would have for you, MM (this is another great response in my obviously unprofessional, unparental opinion, Polly), but maybe just someone saying that you are seen and heard and supported - even by strangers - might be helpful for you to hear? You sound like a truly wonderful mother and stellar partner - and (at least from my pov) just taking the step to write in to Polly means you haven't become that "gender cliche" and won't; you are still fighting for yourself and your personal dreams, which may or may not be separate from being a wife and a mother. And there are folks like me cheer-leading you every step of that journey, whatever that self becomes/chooses and whatever those dreams may be.

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