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Emma's avatar

Ugh this reminds me so much of someone I dated. What I would ask is: if this guy dropped all the avoidance and became a very stable committed person who wanted to marry you, would you still find him interesting? Or does part of you really want to be distracted by a difficult relationship to avoid thinking about something else?

Personally, I was avoiding grieving a 5 year relationship I had just ended, addressing my depression and ADHD, making decisions about my career, etc. It was easier to get caught up in what someone else wasn’t giving me than think about what I wasn’t giving myself.

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denise's avatar

Perfect timing. I was once hung up on a man just like this, and then the pandemic gave me the space and strength to put distance between us. I never thought I would get over needing his approval, but here I am in December 2022, he's texting me again, and I feel...nothing. That's because in the interim I realized that I needed to create my own joy, and found like-minded and exuberant friends who are brave, and passionate, and unapologetic about who they are. Once you experience that? Half-assessed just doesn't hold a candle to it.

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