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I can really relate to this letter because it's hard for my brain to do more than one thing at a time. Life is so much simpler when you only have one single priority! But I've come to see that single-spot focus as a kind of learning disability, like dyslexia.

I love accomplishing things and I'm very goal oriented, but I also have ADHD with a lil' sprinkle of autism. My boundless enthusiasm and hyperfocus means that whatever I do, I do 1000%!!! Until I fall over and die! Job! Crush! Art project! Volunteering! A lot of people call this "perfectionism" and "overachieving" but those words aren't as helpful for me as words like "hyperfixation" and "task switching deficit".

In order to keep my life from being totally out of whack, I have collected a lifetime of tricks that I use regularly. I put things on my to do list like "eat breakfast" and "eat lunch". I set timers for myself so that I don't work on things too long. I do qi gong and go for long walks. I tell my partner and friends my plans for the day, week, month, year, so they can help me get perspective on what's reasonable to accomplish. And the older I get, the easier things are, because I can recognize when to ride the wave of deep enthusiasm to victory, and when to bail before I hit the rocks.

Letter writer, it really will get easier with time. When you are feeling crazy, take a break, get exercise, take a nap, know that your abilities to work AND love will still be there when you get back.

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Aymun Shahid's avatar

This is the kind of advice I wish my many, many, MANY certified therapists had given me (seriously, where do I file for a refund?). But more than that, the fact that YOU took the time to respond to MY letter feels almost surreal. Some of the insights you shared were so eerily accurate, I wouldn’t be surprised if a little bit of witchcraft was involved.

At 20, I would have been screaming and doing cartwheels. At 26, I’m sitting here quietly grateful - though, admittedly, still low-key screaming - because, for years, this column has been my escape when life felt anything but anti-flaw, anti-failure, and anti-compromise. Fangirling aside (though it’s not easy to contain!!) thank you for caring. For offering a response to a stranger halfway across the globe - one that wasn’t just thoughtful, but deeply valuable. The part about slowing down hit me in a way I didn’t realize I needed. I’ve been running on autopilot for so long, and for the first time in a while, I feel like I can actually stop and take a breath. And already, everything feels a little less frantic.

I’ve made sure this letter is saved across all my devices - it’s that important to me. Through your words, I am finding the courage to believe that maybe, just maybe, I can choose both - because why the heck not?! So here I am, officially pumping the brakes, and for the first time, it doesn’t feel like a failure - it feels like hope. Thank you for this beautiful reminder, Polly. Love you endlessly.

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