Discussion about this post

User's avatar
Danielle's avatar

I will start this new story process by shifting to neutral acceptance stories that focus on where I truly have power because, for me, quickly shifting to a new story that takes a 180 degree turn feels phony.

I don't exist properly. -> I am that I am.

I am only meant to understand, not be understood -> I am worthy of the same patience, consciousness, and curiosity that I give to other people.

I feel most whole when I am alone. -> I can have alone time and have a non-transactional relationship where I do not question my value and worth solely in relation to the other person.

I am the best thing that has happened and will ever happen to me. -> Kindness is real and often quiet so it needs my patience and humility to notice and accept it. I can focus on the people who treat others with gentleness and reassurance without bullshitting.

Expand full comment
Asha Sanaker's avatar

I'll confess that your point about moralism rankled, since so many of these stories were originally formed when I was a tiny, tiny kid being subjected to horrible abuse. "No one is coming to save you", for instance, was a story that got formed when I literally watched my oldest brother's feet departing down the hallway while I was held under the bed by the younger of my older brothers so he wouldn't be discovered abusing me. The "story" made some literal sense from my four year old perspective.

That said, I think I get your point, which isn't about the original creation point of the story, but about the process through which we repeat and ingrain those stories over time, collecting evidence beyond the confines of their creation to underline and cement them. And that is when some sense of a moral (or immoral) universe can come into play. I'll have to think on that one a little more deeply. To that end, I'll play along with the reframing exercise, since I've had to do a lot of that over the years.

1. No one is coming to save you. > All the things you needed saving from have already happened, long, long ago. And look! Here you are, having saved yourself and also been saved by the love of so many people over the years. You don't need saving anymore, honey. You just need to continue to be here for everything that will happen, trusting in yourself and the web of relationships that hold you.

2. Never make mistakes. If you can't help it, hide them. > Everyone makes mistakes, love. That's how we learn. And that's how we are afforded the opportunity to develop the skills of grace and mercy, which are two of the most beautiful capacities we have as humans in relationship to each other. You *will* make mistakes, continually. That's how you know you're alive. And what a great gift that is, to still be alive in this imperfect, poignant, gorgeous life you have. Everyone around you will also continually make mistakes, too, just to be clear. The extent to which you can model mercy for yourself is powerful medicine in their healing. The extent to which you can offer grace to them is powerful medicine in yours.

3. Love and pain are inevitably intertwined. > Yes, they are. But there's also a difference between the pain of being witnessed and vulnerable, taking risks, experiencing grief, and fucking up (see #2) and the pain of abuse, diminishment, and disrespect. Like the Buddhists say, there is pain and then there is unnecessary suffering. You can't get out of the potential for pain if you want the exquisite joy of love in your life, but you can walk away from unnecessary suffering. You can and you have! (See #1, Self-Rescuing Princess) You also have developed the capacity to hold the unavoidable pain that comes with love. Your heart is so big now, love. You're going to be fine.

Expand full comment
52 more comments...

No posts